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Do you remember the time when you and I were fine
There I was, at a time in my life when everything seemed right
But at first I sat there with all this fear
Empty thoughts and a blank fate
Trying to find a reason why this will all end up great
But I stopped analyzing what would be if I didn’t try what could be
My feelings can't control, the things that I do

I realized we were meant to be and in my head I only saw him
For me every moment meant something special
It was always fun doing the things we did.
We knew each other better then we knew our own selves
Every smile he thought was unnoticed. It was, by me.
Each laugh we've shared... I’ll always remember
We stood together and strong with no doubt in our minds
Late night conversations we had that lasted forever
We could comfortably talk about things
That no one but us could understand.
Having all the jokes only we laughed about
Reliving these memories together hoping it would never end...

Summer fun continuing on, nothing ever went wrong
He was good to me, even said he loved me <3
I wasn’t sure if it was love back or just because of the fact
I started liking him a lot so nothing was a fault when I said those words back
He was so sweet, romantic, caring and loving
The first guy who ever truly meant something.
Days we couldn’t be together was unbearable
Love thoughts sending through the long days and nights
Depending on one another for help and comfort when needed
Always being there for each other and always knowing how to make it all better
Still best friends but just with a romantic glance
Nothing ever went wrong... I thought this one would last a life time

But then summer drama was starting up...
Another day gone by, I don’t think we were passing the test of time
I have never cared about anyone this much in my life
But I took him for granted and played it like it was all a line
With no clue in my mind of what I was actually ruining
Acting stupidly because of the influences around me
But still no excuse for what I was doing
Regretting in sorrow and asking for remaking

I tried to make things better but
He kept hitting me with something harder
He started changing, becoming cold and controlling
Jealous and immoral... I couldn’t handle the total
Overreacting along with over analyzing
Judging my honesty and implying I don’t care anymore
It hurt me that this was happening
But I didn’t know how to stop us from fading
I thought he knew he was the only one for me…
It was just his jealously and insecurity
But of course denying it and not taking any responsibility
He thought he was always right, never admitting to his mistakes
We started to realize that two wrongs weren’t making a right
But we didn’t want to give up all we had… so we kept going…

Here I am, on the phone again and
Awkward silence is on the other end
I used to know the sound of a smile in his voice
But right now... All I feel is the pain of the fights starting up again
All the things we talk about
You know they stay on my mind
All the things we laugh about
They have been bringing us through it every time
But I'm never gonna be good enough for you
And I just can't stand another fight
We lost it all and nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry, I wasn’t perfect.
The ones you trust, are the ones that lie
The cold wind that blows all the things I used to know
how could it play so fast never thought you'd be part of my past
would I trade it all again to get you out of my head?
Cause now I know change means losing security

What went on last night? Was it just another stupid fight?
Will we be again or will we both regret this in the end?
You walked away yesterday… Now today there's nothing to say
So tomorrow will never know what should have been or could have been told
Cause yesterday has been done.
Consider me your friend
Until you do that stupid shit again
I believed all you told… Then you left me hanging out so cold
But everything turned out wrong and now I've got to carry on
Long days long nights
The feeling's gone, the pain dwells on
I pick up a pen and pad and I start to write
Thinking about our last fight
When I think all the thoughts come to my head
of the last words that you said
they’re stuck inside of me
Then I say this wont happen to me ever again
Three months later you're my friend
And its happening again
If at all you taught me anything
You taught me pain and hurt
Now can you tell me
Do you ever feel guilt
Hidden pain that you built
Inside of your heart
A million miles apart we lie
Times change, your mind's rearrange

Do you remember the summer that lasted so long
June til September was our time to sing all our songs
I want to rewind every time
'Cause the words had so much meaning
They were there when nobody cared
Always knew what I was feeling
Stay tonight don't leave me reminiscing
All I do is wind up missing you
Are you missing me…?

Did you give up when I was nowhere to be found?
Did you get tired of being left all alone?
Do you feel better now that you're on your own?
I’m so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence lingers here
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There’s just too much that time cannot erase
I’m now bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

I’m lost, broken, confused but I won't give up on you...
tonight all I see is your face on everyone else.
And now I know how scared you were all by yourself.
When the phone rings do you ever hope that it's me?
Do you ever dream of a day when we will still be?
Tonight I’ll lie here all alone wondering what our future holds.
And if my life should fall apart would you still care?
Would you still care?

Despite all you know
you might not recognize me tomorrow
Yes I can change Despite all they say
Become something strange and beautiful
Am I gonna get blown off as soon as
I get back on another track without you?
cause I don't have the heart to try
one more false start in my life
it's been so hard to get it right
seems like the moment I catch up the farther you get
I’ve wasted your time denying that
that's the reason we fought all the time
it's been so long since you've been a friend of mine
seems like I’ve dreamed and now I’m waking up to daylight
what happened, when did you let go of me
I miss you so badly… Another lesson I didn't get to learn
You’re my obsession and I've got nowhere to turn.


♥ WaItInG FoR HiS BrEaK LiGhTs... ♥